Feels Like [I'm Crazy]

I think I'm going crazy.


I don't hear the voices.
They're in my head.

In my head.
Six of them. Mean Lauren, Nice Lauren, Roo, Kerri, Calm and Collected, and sweet sweet Sam.
Echoes. Lots of echoes.


I don't know.
They're apparently "personalities" that I've compartmentalized over the years. Pieces of my personality that need to be woven back together.

But they have control. They have their own opinions, thoughts. They switch in when it suits them, switch out.
They protect me, when I can't cope on my own.

They hurt me, as Mean Lauren did two weeks ago.

The voices hum. They echo. They whisper mean things to me in the back of my mind (at least Mean Lauren does).
Mean Lauren is prevalent, the others are there when called.
Roo came out tonight, and hung out with my mom. That was nice of her.


It's hard to tell. I can tell them to be quiet. I can tell them to calm down. But that doesn't mean anything. They're still there, humming.

I think I'm going insane.
I don't know what to do, or who to talk to.

I need help.